….I think that I just notice the worst. So many obstacles seem to just get in the way. Plus my struggle with lack of being able to breathe and chest pains that come more frequently than ever. I have to convince myself I am ok with dying to be able to calm down. It just seems every time I try to pull my life together I get sick or my car dies or SOMETHING happens but I also know I am just being hypersensitive and this is just life. Everything for me is a huge catastrophe although it’s not as bad as I used to make it.