So I have seen Mr. Koyzan perform a few times at the Well and he’s good. I always have liked and kept meaning to try “slam poetry”.

If you don’t know who he is here are some videos: And he did a TED talks.

I don’t follow him on Facebook but my friend does and reposted this:

I am posting this as yesterday clicks over into today

Today marks the 3 year anniversary of going off anti depression medication. The first step back toward what I considered “normalcy” came by embracing the fact that “normal” doesn’t exist. We are damaged, hurt, ugly and beautiful creatures. We are puzzles and riddles… ironies and hypocrites. I would urge anyone toward pharmacology if that’s what can help them. I would beg anyone to come away from it if they feel ready to accept and endure pain. I thank everyone who gave me their time to talk me down from the abundance of ledges that this world has to offer. I would and will plead that those who have never truly felt the depth of despair to, please, embrace patience when dealing with us. We will not change over night. Your love is an echo that we will hear… in time. I am here because of love.

That’s awesome that he could go off and stay off  medication. If I could ( and not have the dire consequences) I would too obviously. I have tried a couple times now “quitting meds”. It is not worth the time lost and brain damage incurred by both being constantly stressed, depressed, and too tired to move. The line above that I have to comment specifically on is, “I would beg anyone to come away from it[anti-depressants] if they feel ready to accept and endure pain.” 

The issue is, I have accepted this and most importantly endured years of unnecessary pain from misdiagnoses and hiding my issues.

My life is too short to lose long chunks of time (from entire summers, to weeks, to possibly years), to this tiredness/draining debilitating condition. I have finally vowed to only go off completely, if they find a permanent cure, or to have children. My grandmother was on medication her entire life, and when she ran out it was obvious. We both have complained of the same symptom, “I have the flu”. Which is a good way to compare the “tiredness” related to depression.

If you are taking medication for a specific reason such as PTSD, and were never depressed or tired as a child then, maybe you can someday. I have also been reading many new article on the research regarding stress damage on the brain/body. I wouldn’t want to cause any further damage to myself by living in darkness and melancholy, as I probably already have.

Pill sucks, but VERY VERY GLAD THEY EXIST! 

 

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About depressionica

Young sciency/arsty/etc girl who is highly interested in her own problem, depression and mental illness. She takes the scientific approach and is constantly reading new research and self-help books.

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