I finally got to see a specialist of the specialists psychiatrist. He is AWESOME. He recognized how my depression is primarily energy based, my energy being extremely low for a person of my fitness and health. It really is energy based. I get paranoid on any of the stimulating anti depressants such as Wellbutrin and totally exhausted on some of the stronger anti depressants. They have a small effect of not letting me get totally lost in deep depression and keep me going but it is not enough. It is not enough to function on a daily basis, concentrate, learn, or work a 40 hour work week (even with 1.5L of coffee a day). Some days I have more energy than others but often I am stuck 3-4 weeks super tired and then maybe a week of slight relief where I can exercise everyday and be out and about without obsessing over sugar and coffee to keep me going.
It will take at least a week or 2 before I notice a difference but I want to feel it now. I am tempted to just take 2 or 3 pills (I am on half pills now) just to be all hyper again and reassure myself I am capable of having energy! I won’t though…I just gotta keep waiting and sipping my coffees.,,,