Now I didn’t want to freak out or anything. But I said I was not functioning on a daily basis and accented my words angeredly. I needed help. I am doing well though mentally I think. I am SUPER DUPER “tired”. The one thing I could relate to in Sylvia Plath’s the Bell Jar’s Movie was when she said “I am so tired, I am just sooooo tired”. That is how depression gets to me. It just makes me extremely tired. Mild depression can inspire me, to make changes blah blah blah but real full on depression I just literally don’t give a fuuuuck. And I haven’t given a fuck about a lot of normal things for a long time. Such as wanting a partner, love, what I am doing, what I sound like, how good I am at my job etc. It’s entertaining to a certain point.

ECT for XMAS yes please!


About depressionica

Young sciency/arsty/etc girl who is highly interested in her own problem, depression and mental illness. She takes the scientific approach and is constantly reading new research and self-help books.

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