So I went on what I thought was a first date with this guy recently but turned out to be our second…since we actually met up in the summer and ate at one of my fav korean restaurants…I didn’t even realize this until half way through my salmon sashimi and he mentioned the last restaurant we went to. I found it quite hilarious I couldn’t remember our last encounter, it didn’t really bother me. Although this night I figured I really didn’t get along with this guy oh well I wasn’t actually interested anyways. My sex drive/or longing for physical touch/even so much as wanting a relationship died a couple of years ago(most likely due to my Mental health). It also has to do with my logical approaches to analyzing people and the fact well I just wanna fuck around for awhile (not literally fuck around).

The weird thing is though. This past summer I was in Ottawa for the French Program called Explore. And I did pretty terribly on tests and remember words and just learning in general. This is always a problem when I am depressed. And I have actually forgot a lot of things that happened but I do have pictures in my mind of certain events and fun times which is good. Also the fact that I took pictures helped. I DO NOT remember seeing my cousin there at all, which when my mom brought it up a week ago. I was shocked I had seen this cousin I had never met. You would think I would have remembered that.

The point is even though I had significant memory loss, I did not lose any French. My French has substantially improved!!


About depressionica

Young sciency/arsty/etc girl who is highly interested in her own problem, depression and mental illness. She takes the scientific approach and is constantly reading new research and self-help books.

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