After gaining another 2 pounds for really no reason at all. I have been swimming and exercising (maybe it is muscle or water I dunno) it angers me that I am definitely not in control of my weight because of my medication. I mentioned in a previous post that I had gone off medication and lost all my excess flab after 8 months, eating more junk food then I do now.
Something I wanted to mention is how a couple of my female psychiatrists brushed it off like it wasn’t a big deal. I got the whole well maybe you are just eating too many carbs from one and the other didn’t take it too seriously either. Now I like them and they are excellent doctors but I think it’s a very good reason why a young woman would not want to take her pills or worse yet, go off meds and develop an eating disorder. My family doctor was good about it, but at the same time he’s a big guy himself (most likely from his stressful job) what could he really do for me?
I know I shouldn’t worry about my weight and I respect smart hard working successful creative people a lot more than skinny people. Weight was just one thing I could control in my life. Someday I will get it back but I might have to relax for a now.
The other thing with the weight gain is that doctors told me I would just gain a set weight. Say 20 pounds. The truth is I have been gaining weight steadily over the years, it just doesn’t stop. I always though people got obese because well they were stressed out, they like eating, they were having fun, and basically were not paying that much attention to themselves (unfortunately). I’ve never “loved” food the way some of my friends eat an entire cake to the themselves for stress relief.

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About depressionica

Young sciency/arsty/etc girl who is highly interested in her own problem, depression and mental illness. She takes the scientific approach and is constantly reading new research and self-help books.

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